一轉眼....

我的老天爺
一轉眼
我回來台灣已經快要兩年了.....
這兩年除了換工作之外
好像也沒有什麼新鮮的事情
同樣的作息：上班，下班
同樣的運動：跑步，瑜伽
同樣的男人：老查，很遠 

不同的可能只有
身上多出來的肥肉
臉上多了幾道細紋
頭上多了幾根白髮吧......
啊！ 還有無止盡的肩頸酸痛（所謂的鍵盤滑鼠手嗎？XD） 

所以就算兩年過去 什麼變了？
好像什麼也沒改變
台北的夏天一樣濕熱黏膩
空氣中一樣充斥著交通工具的污濁廢氣
下雨的時候 一樣一片霧氣蒸騰的朦朧，帶著我熟悉的熱帶潮溼氣味.... 

可我也沒有忘記
波士頓春天的櫻花繽紛，查爾斯河邊悠閒野餐的人群
舊金山一年到頭冷死人不償命的海風，和"印第安夏天"的炙熱豔陽
洛杉磯總是乾燥的讓人流鼻血的空氣，偶爾紙醉金迷的夜晚
柏林秋天的紅黃綠葉搖曳的街景，和東歐一片銀白的冬日時光 

沒想到那些過去一人在外流浪的日子，竟成了我日思夜想的美好回憶
一回神
我竟也到了感嘆不再年輕，總愛回顧過去的年紀了...... 

但是至少我還有夢！
過去的經驗造就今日的我
而我也相信自己還有勇氣做夢，築夢
這樣
這些回憶，也就值得了
不是嗎？（笑～）

準備回家～

星期二剛結束中歐九天八夜的小旅行回到柏林
轉眼兩天又過了
我的記憶還停留在布拉格皇宮雪中漫步
維也納霧氣蒸騰白茫茫的多瑙河
以及薩爾斯堡群山圍繞的古老小鎮

沒想到
回來柏林洗的衣服都還沒乾
就又得開始打包行李準備回台灣了
我只能說
今年我的搬家次數算是破表了！！

下星期一清晨六點就會踏上桃園機場的土地
這次回家要待多久還不曉得
等有空的時候再來補寫遊記（我真的會寫嗎？好懶喔～～XD）
以及上傳照片～

再過2.5小時就是生日了
又老了一歲
前途茫茫啊～
現在頭腦無法思考
因為忙著打包行囊
接下來該何去何從？
回到家再好好想想吧......

Future.....

一個人的生活還是兩個人的甜蜜?
一個人的自由還是兩個人的依靠?
男人
無．法．決．定

放不開的手
轉不了的身
移不動的腳
女人
決．意．等．待

用青春換來的未來
但．求．無．悔

Only You~~~

時間真的很快
跟親愛的理查先生在一起
已經快要兩年了
這根本就破了我自己的交往紀錄
更訝異的是
對他的愛也沒有隨著時間的增加而減退
也許是要歸功於遠距離
讓我們聚少離多
每次的見面都顯得格外珍貴
於是甜蜜的感覺只增不减
因為不常相聚
所以每次在一起做的每件事情
都格外新鮮
每個回憶都是美好的
我們彼此都很珍惜

也只有他可以輕易地動搖我的情緒
他的一舉一動可以讓我哭讓我笑
在大哭之後的下一秒又立刻破涕為笑
我想真的也只有他才能辦到了吧～～

上星期說到最近身旁的朋友分手
其中兩對都曾是同居狀態
我不禁思考
在還沒有結婚前就住在一起真的是好事嗎？
一方面當然兩個人可以朝夕相處
可以了解對方更多的個性與習慣
但是相對的
要是不能容忍或是理解
摩擦反而會增加
若是沒有住在一起
僅透過平時約會的相處
對於對方生活上的大小事情可能無法瞭若指掌
卻多了彼此的空間
也能更增加彼此互相想念的情感
我倒覺得小別勝新婚
只要彼此信任
在沒有同居或是結婚的交往情形下
這樣反而更能增進心靈的親密度
而不會被每天生活在一起的柴米油鹽瑣事磨損的愛情的強度

但這也是見仁見智啦
每個人的想法不同
所以才會有各式各樣的相處模式
只要找到適合自己跟對方的
就是最好的

最近跟理查王子也談到應該考慮一下我們的未來
並沒有具體的開始談該怎麼做
只是希望兩個人都能先去思考
我不知道將來會怎麼樣
但是就目前情形來看
我覺得在不久的將來應該還是有希望去成歐洲的
大家請好好的替我祈禱吧
呵呵～～

Sick Again.....

沒錯
好光景度過沒多久
我又感冒了......
不過還好不嚴重
在我努力的補充維他命C的情況下已經改善很多了
果然上次重感冒後
我買了一堆的感冒葯放在家裡備用是正確的決定 XD

不過到底為什麼會感冒
我也不是很明白
難道是因為天氣變化太大嗎?
還是辦公室總是太冷??

這星期工作有點挫折
讓我整個很鬱卒
又不想跟男友抱怨
所以一整個悶.......(感謝阿P先生還聽我吐苦水 :p )

我不認為自己沒有努力
只是覺得沒有教我就期待我自己要學會有點違背常理
加上因為兼別的職務所以時間被切割的很零散
很難專心處理手上的事情
但是這也是我要學習的
三個月了
我一定要更快把這些東西都學會
只要變成是我的
以後去到哪裡就都沒問題了

我不會被打敗的!!!
Fight!!!!

一年又一年....

阿~~
又到了這個時候啦.....
真的是好快啊

還記得去年的生日是在舊金山
老林家慷慨的借我當場地開party
儘管隔週馬上就要期末考
還是來了好多同學朋友捧場
超級熱鬧滾滾

今年搬到了LA
情人和朋友都不在身邊
但是多了家人的陪伴
還是很開心
也許唯一不開心的
是我又老了一歲吧
呵呵

這一年發生了很多事情
也經歷了一大堆的不確定
可是年末總結
也算是收穫滿滿
結果都還令人滿意
該完成的完成了
不確定的確定了
剩下的就是繼續昂首闊步
往前邁進
我始終相信
只要目標明確
過程儘管與計畫的不盡相同
還是可以達到的我要的結果

所以接下來的新目標：
努力工作存錢
持續往歐洲邁進吧
哈哈哈～～

What an Inefficient Country!!!

這兩天為了畢業證書的事情搞的我很火大
怎麼可以有學校這樣不負責任?!

事情的原委
就是前兩個禮拜同學差不多都拿到畢業證書了
我還沒拿到
就打電話跟寫信去學校問
Graduation Center跟我說:
Your degree has been posted and the diploma will be mailed out in approximately 2 weeks.
我就心想：好！既然要寄了，我就耐心等吧～

兩週過去，我還是沒收到
再寫信去問一次
結果Graduation Center竟然回我：
Your account has a hold on it and it needed to be cleared before the diploma can be released!!

這是什麼鬼???
如果我的account有on hold
你幹麻上上禮拜不跟我說??
讓我白白等兩週??

所以我又打電話去學校的Financial Center問我的 Account on hold 到底是怎麼回事
一聽更差點沒昏倒：她說我欠繳夏季班的學費!!
！＠＃＄＊＆︿％
我已經氣炸到快要罵髒話了
什麼叫我欠繳學費？？
我全部的學費在整個program一開始就全部繳清
我都已經畢業兩三個月了你才跟我說我欠繳學費??
還好我有練過，修養還可以
就還是維持禮貌的問她說我一開始全部都交啦，為什麼會欠繳？
她說春季班的時候有退費，今年一月份還寄了支票給我
真是活見鬼
我從頭到尾都沒看到有支票這個東西
更不知道有什麼退費
到底在搞什麼東西啊？

所以我只好請她幫我查清楚支票的事情
然後幫我清掉帳戶的on hold
因為我急需畢業證書！！
她說她跟他們的主管討論一下
找出那個支票的紀錄
再打電話給我

兩小時後
那個主管打來
跟我說她需要我寫一個證明我沒有收到支票的信
簽名寄給她們
這樣就可以還原我的帳戶並且清除積欠的學費
所以我立刻寫了信簽好名
今天早上去郵局用快件寄出去(有夠貴....)
明天會到
接下來就是要一直催他們快點把我的畢業證書吐出來

唉
這裡真的很奇怪
我真的是受夠這些人很無腦的做事方法了
XD

He really loves me...

是閃光文！！沒戴墨鏡勿入喔～～　*^__^*

*************************************************************************************

最近發生好多事情
短短的一週之內
我的人生又起了大變化........

在這些變化之中
我最親愛的男朋友給了我很大的幫助支持與鼓勵
他讓我想了很多關於未來的事情
也提供意見替我做各式各樣的準備
我真的很感謝他
就算在千里之外
他還是把我的事情放在心上

這幾天我們在計畫新年旅遊
想要去拜訪朋友
因為年底機票異常昂貴
我又處於失業狀態
在財務狀況不甚良好的情況之下
我陷入了考慮是否放棄一同旅行去拜訪朋友的機會
想說也許就他自己一個人去
他就不用還得先負擔我的機票
沒想到
今天他說：「如果妳不去，我自己一個人去就沒有意義了！」

聽到這種話
怎叫我內心不激動？？
他本來就不是個經常甜言蜜語的男人
總是用行動來表達他對我的在乎
看在眼裡
心裡總是暖呼呼的
這個男人，我怎麼能不愛他呢？

因為一直有技術上的問題，
他一直沒辦法成功地網路訂票
加上早已超過他的睡覺時間
在他幾乎要把電腦給砸了的情況之下
最後他終於幫我買好了機票

我們的新年旅遊
就此敲定！！

啊～～這季節是正熱情的南美洲呢～～嘻嘻　*^__^*

One Year!!

（這是閃光文～沒戴墨鏡不要讀喔～呵呵～）



It has been 1 year~ since we first met in Boston. I am glad that I went to Renata's birthday party, so that I could meet you there.

It was a great year being with you. And I hope we can be together soon after I graduate from school. We've been apart for so long and I know it's not easy for both you and me.

I would like to thank you for the company for the past 12 months. I'm so happy to have you with me. With your care and love, I can move forward with no doubt, because I know you'll always be supportive behind me.

Thank you so much.

Ich liebe dich.


一年了，好快！回想剛見面的情形，到現在都還記憶猶新。要不是去參加了好友的生日趴，就不會認識我家帥氣的理察王子。

這一年其實我們真是聚少離多，真的是很辛苦的遠距離戀愛。但是，也因為有他的陪伴跟支持，我才能一直有動力去面對未來的挑戰，也能夠無後顧之憂的一路往前。對我來說，他是除了家人之外，最重要的人了。如果一切順利的話，希望畢業後我就能跟他在一起，不用真的住在一起，但至少不要再分隔半個地球了！

一年快樂！*^__^* (灑花~~~)

A pain in the ass...

This semester is really, really, really a pain in the ass.... too much homework, too many quizzes, to many things that I could not understand, too complicated....the finals are coming in 2 weeks. My brain is like a piece of swiss cheese and could not well functioning. Plus the CFA exam is also around the corner, I have a feeling that if I can make it through all the way to the CFA exam, I'll be completely another person, like a new-born baby, waiting to discover the whole world and take whatever challenge in my future life.

I watched the lecture from Prof. Randy Pausch on Youtube. He said something very important: "The brick walls are there for a reason: they let us prove how badly we want things!!" The brick walls are only there to stop people who don't want things badly enough. Here is the link of the brief version and the introduction of Prof. Pausch.

http://tw.youtube.com/watch?v=mSrYhRi5WNI&feature=related

Richard told me about the same thing, telling me to keep trying and do not easily give up what I really want. I found it interesting so I sent the link to him. He replied me saying that he found this lecture last year and watched it all the way through during his work. He tried to get in touch with Prof. Pausch for an interview during his business trip in Boston, but he never got a reply. Well, it's understandable since the professor had cancer and could only live for another few weeks or months since this last lecture(Sept. 2007)

I should be grateful that I'm healthy and my families are also all healthy. I admire Prof. Pausch's attitude toward his life, his career, and his family. Even before he's dying, he still lived a happy life. I really should stop complaining and just do the things I need to do.

Be focus!!! Richard has been very supportive and showed his love to me. Be thankful, too!!!

Learn to be Lonely

It's kind of hard to explain why this headline shows here. But I hope it's just a temporary situation that will disappear soon.

Long distance relationship is always a very difficult one among all kinds of relationship. Lucky me, I'm in that situation for the most of my relationships. Maybe it's just because I'm too independent and busy, I seldom asked my partners to do anything for me, especially when we were parted. And that gave them the impression that I'm very strong and do not need extra care.

Yes, I tried to be strong. Not pretending, but really became stronger. However, there were still days that I felt lonely away from my loved ones. I would not tell them that I didn't feel good, because that would only make them worry about me. Thus, I had to "Learn to be Lonely."

Recently, Richard came to Boston to attend a conference. I am very happy that he could make it to the U.S. because he always wanted to go to that conference and also go back to MIT and Harvard to attend the fellowship reunion. I am also happy that we're now in the same country and being closer, geographically. However, he was sick before he departed from Germany and was getting more and more serious when he arrived in Boston. He did write me emails and call me to not to worry too much about him. But still, I'm a nervous person and want to know if he has been better or not. I called him several times yesterday but couldn't get through him. That made me more anxious!! Suddenly, I found myself so lonely and I put too much attention on Richard that I could not concentrate on other things!!!

I felt sad and angry about myself that I couldn't stay the way I was as he was in Germany. Even though he's now in Boston, he's still 3000 miles away from me!!! I should not be that excited and lose control of my emotion.....

So, I should go back to my normal life and stay the way we used to communicate with each other. I'll be fine in a few days!!

So Sick.....>_<

It has been almost 1 week!! I'm still coughing, having a running nose, and sore throat!!! I couldn't sleep well at night because the god damn cough always woke me up during the night. Didn't I take any medicine? Of course I did. But all of them were just useless and my cold was so strong that it doesn't seem to like going away. So, I went to our school clinic today to see the doctor. Really need some useful prescription to get me out of this shit as soon as possible. Come on~~ the finals are coming and I need to be well to finish the exam, and also be well to meet Richard and his parents.(Oh yes, my first stop in Germany is at his parents' place~~ how nice~~~ ^__^)

Painful Dizziness......

It was a normal day on Monday. I got up at 6:40am and went to class. As usual, we had a 30-minutes quiz at the beginning of the class. Everything was just fine, except I felt extremely hungry this day.... I did have my breakfast, but just not that much. I ate 2 pieces of chocolate during the break and hope it would give me some energy from arising my blood sugar. Luckily, the class was dismissed 30 minutes earlier than usual and I went home immediately, eager to get some food.

When I got home, I came into my room, opened my laptop, got my cell phone and tried to send a text message to my dear Richard, all of a sudden, I felt very dizzy!!!! The things in front of my eyes started to turn around like I just finished 3 rides of Roller coaster....I almost fell down on the floor!!! That's not a good sign. I told Richard that I was not feeling well in the text, then slowly changed my clothes and lay down on my sofa. I could barely move my body because every movement made me feel nauseous. My stomach was empty by that time since I haven't got a chance to eat anything, nevertheless, the nausea even made it worse!!! 3 minutes later, Richard text me back and asked if I was ok. I replied no, and told him that I couldn't get out of my sofa to see a doctor. He asked me to drink more water and go to sleep, it should be fine.

After 20 minutes, I couldn't stand the nauseous feelings anymore so I got up and tried to reach the bathroom. I had a feeling that it was the longest way I ever had in my life......Fortunately, one of my roommates, Noel, was home, and he saw me staggering in the hallway. He came to help me get into the bathroom and set me on the toilet. I tried to vomit, wondering if it could make me feel better. The answer was: not really!!! I felt even weaker after I vomited.......Anyway, I went to the kitchen to get some water, and Noel asked if he needed to call an ambulance for me. I said it was not necessary because I had this dizziness before. The only thing I need was to lie down and get some sleep. So, he helped me get back to my sofa (I have no strength to climb onto my bed), and I asked him to climb upstairs and drag the blankets on my beds for me.

I slept for almost 3.5 hours till 4:30pm, and started to feel a bit better. I got up to the kitchen and wanted to eat something. There's a pot of soup which I cooked the other day and I reheated it up and drank some of them. Noel was home and he helped me to cook some rice. After I drank the soup, I took one tablet of stomach pill and then went back to sleep again.

8:00pm I woke up again because of hunger. At this moment, I felt better than I was in the afternoon, but still a little bit dizzy. Couldn't move my body quickly, I could only sit on the chair in the kitchen and eat the rice and soup slowly. At that time, all my roommates were back and they all asked me if I was better. Noel told them that I was in a not-so-good condition so that if any of them happens to see me staggering in the hallway, they should ask me if I need help 'cuz I was definitely not drunk.

10:30pm, I called home to tell my mom that I need some pills from the doctor for dizziness. 11:00pm I took a shower and then went upstairs to sleep.

Tuesday morning, when I woke up at 8:00am, I was just thinking about Richard, wondering if he would write me a mail or text me a message. Suddenly, my cell-phone rang due to receiving a message. It was him!!!! I was very happy, although I was still a bit dizzy by that time. I replied him as fast as I could and told him not to worry too much. Also, I decided not to go to the group meeting in the afternoon and stayed at home for more rest. I did the assignment and took a short nap. Not until the evening did I really feel totally recovered. For the past 2 days, I lost almost 1 kg.(2 pounds)

Thank God!!! I was alive again!!!

Ridiculous

This is not a normal morning. I've been waken up by a phone call at 7:30 in the morning, asking me if I've ordered food to xxx Hurley St. in Cambridge....(It was not my former apartment number but it was the right street...) I said to the guy who's on the phone that I didn't order anything and I'm now in San Francisco!!!

The guy told me that he's calling from the police office from Boston and he's trying to find out who made this order 3 weeks ago and still not paid for the food!! He also asked me if I knew anyone would use this phone to make the order. I told him that was impossible since I left the U.S in the middle of June and back to Taiwan. I only came back to SF(not Boston) on the 1st of August. The card is always with me and nobody could ever use it!! He asked me if the number is right, I said yes and it's a prepaid card. I didn't sign any contract with the cellphone company. He said he would talk to the cellphone company and make sure that this number is not double issued. He also said if it's necessary, he might ask me to attend a hearing!!!!!

What the hell is that???This is ridiculous enough!!! >__<