He really loves me...

是閃光文！！沒戴墨鏡勿入喔～～　*^__^*

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最近發生好多事情
短短的一週之內
我的人生又起了大變化........

在這些變化之中
我最親愛的男朋友給了我很大的幫助支持與鼓勵
他讓我想了很多關於未來的事情
也提供意見替我做各式各樣的準備
我真的很感謝他
就算在千里之外
他還是把我的事情放在心上

這幾天我們在計畫新年旅遊
想要去拜訪朋友
因為年底機票異常昂貴
我又處於失業狀態
在財務狀況不甚良好的情況之下
我陷入了考慮是否放棄一同旅行去拜訪朋友的機會
想說也許就他自己一個人去
他就不用還得先負擔我的機票
沒想到
今天他說：「如果妳不去，我自己一個人去就沒有意義了！」

聽到這種話
怎叫我內心不激動？？
他本來就不是個經常甜言蜜語的男人
總是用行動來表達他對我的在乎
看在眼裡
心裡總是暖呼呼的
這個男人，我怎麼能不愛他呢？

因為一直有技術上的問題，
他一直沒辦法成功地網路訂票
加上早已超過他的睡覺時間
在他幾乎要把電腦給砸了的情況之下
最後他終於幫我買好了機票

我們的新年旅遊
就此敲定！！

啊～～這季節是正熱情的南美洲呢～～嘻嘻　*^__^*

Walnut, CA~~

It's been almost a week, moving down to LA. I still don't have the sense of direction about this place since I have no car and cannot fool around by myself. This is really inconvenient!!!! I will have to get a driver's license as soon as I can, or I'll be depressed sooner or later, being at home all day long......

The weather here is quite warm, at least warmer than San Francisco. But recently, it's getting cooler and I think it's a good thing because I'm not used to the hot weather anymore..... :p

Working on searching jobs still, no big news here. Living with family has good side and bad side. Good thing is I feel closer to my family in Taiwan, bad thing is I have not many chances to speak English....well, I think it's the trade-off for saving rent....

Need to start study CFA again. This time, I really have to pass it!!!

Fighting!!!

Moving~~

After graduating for almost one month, I decided to move out of San Francisco. I'm going to Los Angeles !!!!

Why?? Ohh~~ It's not because that I have already landed a job there, but simply because my aunt lives there and I'm gonna stay with her to save rent. I think it's a pretty good strategy, since living here alone I have to pay almost $700 rent per month. Staying with her and her son, I can save more money as well as taking care of each other easier. Furthermore, I can look for jobs down there, too. There might be even more opportunities in LA than in SF......

I've packed almost everything already, only something left for the rest of the days staying here. My room is a mess right now since the next tenant has already moved in. She's a friend of a friend. Her name is also Betty and she's from Taiwan too. She's here for the MBA program in USF and we even have very close birthdays...What a coincidence!!!! We get along pretty well and it's amazing that the timing is just a great match! ^___^

Anyway, I'm moving down to LA this Thursday. Saying goodbye to my friends and being emotional are the two primary things I did these days!! Last night, I went out for dinner with the other Betty. When we finished the meal, the waiter brought us the lucky cookies. I picked one and opened it, said the little notes inside: " You will travel far and wide, both pleasure and business." Oh My God!!! I wish this saying is really going to come true!!!

New life will begin very soon and I'm looking forward to it. ^__^

Graduation!!

After one year's rigorous training, I finally graduated last week. It is good and bad. Good is that I am done with school; bad is that I am under unemployment......

The economy this year is really bad, especially for financial industry. Almost every bank went south since last year and continued to write off millions or even billions of lost. For me, graduating at this moment is unlucky. Plus the change of the immigration regulation and the huge amount of application of the H1B visa(working visa), the quota is reducing each year... very competitive and also not guaranteed. Things are getting harder and harder and I am like living in the mist....

Now my only focus is to land a job as soon as possible. No matter it will be here or somewhere else, I NEED A JOB!!! Fighting!!!

Waiting~~

I have to admit that I'm very lazy to update my blog lately. Although I only got 2 more classes to go, life is still not easy for me. (well, at lease I don't have to get up early anymore~~:p)

My major task now is LOOKING FOR A JOB!!!!!

Everyday since I wake up, the first thing I do is to turn on my laptop, check my email, and search for new job openings. It has become a routine so far, and I started to feel a little depressed because I didn't heard any good news at all for 1 month. I understand that the job market is in a very bad situation right now, and it won't get better any sooner. But I'm going to graduate soon and I have no time and no money wondering around anymore. Please my dear God, give me a job so that I can earn my own living to pay the rent and food.

The other thing I'm waiting for is my dear Richard's visiting. Finally he's coming to see me. After waiting for more than 6 months and being patiently waiting, he will be here in less than 10 days and stay for 2 weeks.

Notice: Not for work, but JUST FOR ME!!!! Oh~~~I'm flattered~~~ *^___^*

No big news from school, just some boring assignments and quizzes to do every week. I'll be out of this in 3 weeks. No more schools in the near future. I'm Done!!!

Got a name card from my German tutor's friend, Simon. He works in Deloitte and he would be glad to refer me to his company. So I better revise my resume and send it to him as soon as possible. Also Jerry, my senior in AIESEC, who works in Deutsch Bank in HK, is also willing to help me pass my resume to his colleague. I really have to make it work!!!

Fighting!!! :D

Lately~~

I've been pretty busy these days, showing my high school classmate, Yoyo, around the city and the bay area. She arrived last Friday evening. We had some food at my neighbor's(Christopher) place in the evening and then we went out for some coffee and snacks at a nice Italian restaurant later that night.

Saturday, we went to another famous street called Chestnut St. for cafes and shopping close to the ocean. After having some nice lunch, we walked all the way from the Marina area to the Golden Gate Bridge. That was a nice sunny day, but the wind at the beach was just freezing...both of us were so cold and tired after a 3 hours walk along the beach. When we got home, we could barely move our bodies and could only lay down on the floor in my room...we didn't go out that night but only stayed at home, watching some random movies showed on TV and doing some facial mask. Well, beauty time~~~

Sunday, it was cloudy in SF so we decided to go south to Palo Alto for some sun shine. It was a great decision because the weather there was just good enough to take a walk in Stanford University and in Downtown Palo Alto. We had lunch at an Italian restaurant there and it was the the soccer game for Italy and Spain~~Oh well, the Italian went home eventually....We also met my friend Sheryl and had some afternoon tea and dinner together. Girls talk time~~ We caught the last Caltrain back to SF and being frozen again by the weather in the city.....

Monday, we went to the Fisherman's Wharf. It was crazily cold there!!!! I haven't been to that place since my father's visiting...We were at the famous Pier 39 and were watching some street show from the 2nd floor deck. There was a guy standing next to me and he said that the performer was playing the same trick before he went into a restaurant. I thought he was from the U.K. because he got the British accent. But then he introduced himself, saying he's from Köln, Germany!!! Yoyo and I were so surprised that I could bump into Germans anytime....that tell us: 1. there are Germans everywhere; 2. I'm appealed to the Germans. haha~~ :-)

Anyway, that guy was just a tourist and I tried to practice my German with him. But not much though. Since that day was cold and I had class from 5-9pm, we headed back to downtown earlier. I asked Christopher to take care of Yoyo and then I went to the first class for this final semester. The new professor was quite nice and he's working in a private equity firm. He knows a lot about the practical things instead of only academic stuff. I think this class will be fun.(well, also need some work though~~)

After I got out of my class at 9pm. I went home and found Yoyo was at Christopher's place making pizza. I was hungry so I went there to grab some pizza. Christopher also played some guitar music for us while we were waiting for the pizza. 11pm, Yoyo, Christopher, his roommate(John), and me went to Castro(the gay district) to meet with my tutor and his boyfriend. Because the law for gay marriage in California has just passed, Castro is totally crazy at night recently. We went to the gay bar which I went last time and being hit on by some other gay guy. It was quite crowded in the dancing pool, but we still had lots of fun there until 1am. Yoyo, Christopher, and I left and John said he would like to stay longer. (Oh well, I guess he's also a gay...) We got home at around 1:30am and went to bed at 2:30am. I was exhausted....

Tuesday, we got up around 10am and Yoyo began to pack. Her flight was at 1:30am Wednesday. After she has done the packing, we walked to the Golden Gate Park from my house. Yoyo's Taiwanese friend Johnny drove from San Jose to meet with us. We then went to Sausalito. It was warm there, with nice sunshine. But when we got back to the city, it became cold again. I really don't like this!! This kind of weather gives me a headache...it's already the end of June and it's still only 12 degree!! When can I wear some summer outfit??

Whatever, Johnny drove us to some famous spots for Yoyo to take pictures. Then we went back home to an Ethiopia restaurant near my apartment. That was very special food and we don't have that in Taiwan.

We walked home with extremely full bellies and had some hot tea. Then we helped Yoyo to get all the luggages onto the car. Johnny drove her to the Airport. Then my tour guide trip in SF finished.

Yesterday, I went to the German Counselor with my tutor and his boyfriend to watch the soccer game. Yes, all Germans in the room, only me and my tutor's bf are Asian...the live game has faced some technical problems so we missed the second goal of Germany. But they won at the last minute anyway. hehe. GoGoGo!! Germany~

After the game, we had some lunch and they drove me to my class. Another afternoon class. The teacher is nice and we've had his class before. We'll have to do a project for this class but it's a group project. It will not be too hard but will be fun.

Finally, I got home from class, cleaning my room, doing some laundry, and resting. I slept until 11am today. Watched some episodes and a movie. Relaxing life eventually started!!! ^_^

Save me from Myself--by Christina Aguilera

Just heard this song today and found it very touching. Share it with you all.

Save me from Myself--by Christina Aguilera

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you gotta be
Everything's changing
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

And when I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waiting with
Your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Well some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow maybe shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying
'Cause when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smiling
You always save me from myself
From myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong
And don't ask me why I love you

It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
A better woman to myself
To myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

http://tw.youtube.com/watch?v=HYxmS4UNrWY

再見吧，我的男孩

Dolphin傳給我的網站，是個很感人的故事。
故事中的A先生在養了12年的小孩之後，才發現孩子不是他的親生骨肉，於是找上律師蘇兒真。
是律師也是歌手的蘇兒真從委託人的故事裡，得到了靈感，並創作出這首歌：再見吧，我的男孩。

有興趣知道故事的朋友，從下面的連結去看吧～
先看故事再聽歌，很有感覺喔！（哭點很低的朋友們要小心了！）


http://www.wretch.cc/blog/ninthchords/5244272&tpage=5#trackback3902287

丈夫的眼淚 by 嚴長壽

★僅以此文為四川災民祈福！

九二一大地震過後，我到災區去做了幾次演講，除了談到如何重新包裝南投，振興當地的觀光產業外。最重要的是，我覺得發生這樣的災難，人們最需要的是關懷，所以我想去跟災民們站在一起，鼓舞他們。

演講之後，有一位災區母親寫信給我，她說因為聽了我的演講，所以想看我的書，她去書店找到了，但站在那裡卻猶豫了。
一隻手捧著書看，一隻手在口袋中掙扎著，那裡是一家人的生活費，買書是多麼奢侈的浪費。一次一次她走進書店，站著閱讀，然後離開，最後才靠著每日省下的一點點菜錢，終於買了書。
（很久以後，新聞報導某家百貨公司門前，有一群為了搶買名牌包包的民眾竟然打架、踐踏，甚至送醫。我突然想起在台灣地理中心曾經有一位母親，面對著殘破家園，她在生活糧食與精神糧食之間，躊躇又徘徊的身影……）

她寫給我的信，字跡清秀，工工整整，足足有六七頁長，說著她自己的故事。
她說她先生是農專畢業的，她自己則是高中畢業，還有一雙兒女，一起經營家裡留下來的茶園，生活恬淡平實，不忮不求，她以為，生命應該會這樣好好的走下去。沒想到夜裡的一場天搖地動，震碎了一切。
她的房子全垮了，茶園灌溉用的水塔也倒了，更不堪的是整片茶園橫切裂開來一個地縫，一切都完了。

什麼都沒有了。

不 得已，他們只好到臨時搭建的組合屋住了半年。之後，政府撥放補助，於是他們想回到原來的地方從頭做起，重新再來。但當時補助錢不多，他們必須貸款，再跟朋 友借了一些錢，才把房子蓋起來。原本在餐旅學校讀書的女兒，很懂事，因為經濟因素休學，到溪頭的米堤飯店打工，多少補貼一些家用。

心傷仍在，但他們很努力的一點一點縫合。正當一切似乎都有了新的希望，沒想到地震的餘悸猶存，颱風又來了。

二○○一年的桃芝颱風，從花蓮秀姑巒溪登陸，橫掃花蓮後，越過中央山脈，一路撲向南投。連續六個小時的豪大雨，引發嚴重的土石流，瞬間吞沒了屋瓦房舍、農田林地，帶走兩百多條人命。

又是一夕之間，女兒打工的米堤飯店被巨大的土石流淹沒，接著他們重新蓋好的家又垮了。

重建家園的夢又破了、碎了。什麼又都沒了，還留下債務。

那天清晨，她看見她先生站在已經傾倒的家的後院。一個大男人眼淚一直掉一直掉，然後自己擦眼淚，手一擦，眼淚又掉了更多……。

她在信中說，作為他的妻子，我真的不知道該怎麼安慰他。她說：「總裁，可不可以請你幫我寫封信給我先生，給他一些鼓勵。」

這封信看得我熱淚盈眶，立刻就寫了回信。
我跟她的先生說：你或許是一個非常不幸的人，失去了家，失去了事業，失去了許多有形的財產，但是我卻也看到了你擁有許多有錢有勢的人都得不到的富有。
你擁有這樣一個懂事的女兒，願意為了家庭放棄學業；你更有一位這麼體貼的妻子，她如此關心你的感覺，深怕你無力振作，希望我來鼓勵你，希望帶給你希望與力量。

面對命運那樣無情摧殘的這對夫婦，我的信多麼卑微。

我們落榜、我們失戀，我們被上司構陷、被同儕排擠，我們志不得伸、我們一分努力得不到一分收穫，我們頹廢了、就要放棄了。但是我們不曾想過，有一家人被命運 的手操弄著，在黑暗中連續兩次把根都拔除，那樣的挫折如何承受？就連對他們敞開心肺大喊一聲加油，都會被淹沒在滾滾的巨流中。

我只能盡我的力量有時間便寫信，看到國外好的茶葉產品就寄給他們參考。
我沒有想像到的是，幾年的光陰過去，這家人展現了驚人的韌性，他們不但又一次重建了家園，也重建了茶園。在裂縫的土地上，長出了向陽的新茶。
不時我會收到他們寄來新採成的茶葉，這家人正朝著精緻產品的方向努力。沏一壺茶，一心二葉在滾燙的水中緩緩舒展，我的心又一次熱了起來。
他們一定不知道，他們是我心目中的天使。

New Job!!

YES~I got a new temp job at school. It's the law school final exam proctor. Sounds ridiculous, right? But it's true!! They need proctors to help them out during the final exams weeks. So, this week I'll be busy proctoring at school.

It's not a hard job, in contrast, it's quite easy. After I distribute the exam sheets to the students, I can just sit there and do my own thing. It's like I get paid to study in the room!!! How Nice~~ And today, I saw my roommate, Paul, was sitting there struggling for the exam......I understand that kind of feelings...XD

Well, I just want to get this job to help me with the application of social security number. It will be easier for me to get a REAL job later on once I get the SSN.

Anyway~it's May already...The finals have just ended and the new semester has begun. The big thing that is coming up is the CFA exam. Have to get my gear on it!! Really need to pass it this time, or I think I would never do it again......this is such a pain....

Richard baby may visit me soon. So happy~~~YEAH~~